Hype or happening? For the first time in 2 years, my mum actually asked if i regretted not going to SMU. What was i to say? I'm not sure if i would have like it there and if i would have done better there but i guess, it's human nature to have the counterfactual thinking. "If only...if only..."; these are all too familiar words.
I could have made so many "if only,.." comments and i think i actually did, but it hasn't really did much for me. I've only made myself feel worse. I wonder if something bad always happens when i don't listen to my mum.
NTU(+)=tutorship, band friends, Kai, bird, Fast Cat group mates, Huiying, Hui xian, current "chickie" family and CG.
NTU(-)=bad grades (my fault,really), uncertain future, some bad band experiences, some lecturers that i never understand ( language barrier!).
SMU(+)= Mum's support, supposedly "hot" market for graduates, familiar band culture and some friends, possibility of better grades because of the grading system used (i'm a vocal person.. but i need the environment to be conducive first =)
SMU(-)= really far away, some people that i don't think i want to see, being away from Kai.
Score (NTU)= +5
(SMU)= +2
Hmm, but the weightages for grades... i think in the end i'm the one who cause all of this to happen. Should have studied harder... much much harder.
It's a bit too late now to start regretting my choice of schools, but i only hope it's not too late to make a difference to my future.
Sad Ciaoz...
dreamt of @ 10:30 pm
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certain quotes from certain places..
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trials because when he stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him." James 1:12
"Oh, nothing can happen more than once,
But all things must happen one day
Over hill and dale, over wood and stream,
My dying voice will blow away... " The Neverending story
"Walk by Faith, Not by sight" 2 Corinthians 5:7
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