Lunar new year is a time of celebration of reunion and rebirth; the start of a new beginning. In the web of intricate lies and deceit that we call our lives, is there a beginning and and end?
How similar are our lives with those of the geishas! They live behind painted faces, performing exquisite dances that they spent their lifetimes perfecting and selling their mizuages to the highest bidder. We live behind carefully constructed masks, which we spent many years learning how to construct, performing each intellectually challenging task and selling our lives to the highest bidder of our services. (career, i mean).
How many of us are like Hatsumomo, who seeks passion in a reckless manner and eventually self-destruct? It can be in material wealth, acheiving good grades, anything. Someone who just can't stand competition in our lives.
How many of us are like Mameha, who keep our true desires so tightly bridled that there come times when we are overwhelmed by the hopelessness of our situations and spread this sense of desolation to other who want to succeed?
How many precious few of us are like Sayuri, who manages to continue fighting and through determination and luck carry on towards our goals?
I say at some point in our lives we've been either of the 3 but most of us end up as Mameha, who simply accept life as it is and try to make the best of it. I'm in my Mameha stage now. The past years of being a mix of Sayuri and Hatsumomo has left me with less than pleasant memories which i try not to remember, unless for reflection purposes.
How do i get back on track? Before that, what is my goal? Once it was to get in SAJC, then it was to get into Law. After the latter failed, i was lost in my ways. Nothing could really motivated me to work to my fullest. In everything i did, it was always between 10-98%, never 100%. Now, i'm tired of that. I want to glorify God with my acts and giving haphazard work isn't going to help.
What about you? Where are you now?
Reflective Ciaoz...
dreamt of @ 12:44 am
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certain quotes from certain places..
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trials because when he stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him." James 1:12
"Oh, nothing can happen more than once,
But all things must happen one day
Over hill and dale, over wood and stream,
My dying voice will blow away... " The Neverending story
"Walk by Faith, Not by sight" 2 Corinthians 5:7
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