Many people start the new year by making resolutions which they don't intend to keep or for some reason or another, end up not keeping. I do it in a slightly different manner; i do the exact thing that I know i would resolve not to do in the following year and then after make the resolution.
I wonder if that would mean that i have yet to break my New Year resolution.
I've been told today that i am an over sensitive... or was that sensitive person, such that i feel the changes taking place, i suppose, more keenly than i should. Having this as part of my personality means that i have the ability to be more receptive to change, afterall, i see happening gradually and not suddenly. However, this also means that i have more time to make up my mind and find means of not accepting this change, whatever it may be.
Sometimes i feel like there's 2 of me, one weak side that almost always gives in to the strong evil side of me. That would explain why i'm up now typing up a blog when i know i should be sleeping because i'm utterly exhausted. This part of me struggles with the changes that have recently come into my life, namely my recieving of Christ.
It has grown so much stronger that i can hear it even during service. What it says to me i do not think i would like to share. Some people would think that i'm just looking for some excuses to explain away my actions, which i would not be inclined to deny, since i can't see this voice or know where it comes from. It is often silent only when i do what it wants me to do, whether is it think badly of someone or just being mean to others.
Is it possible for me to find a way out of this? or is this a death-trap that i can never escape from?
dreamt of @ 12:44 am
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certain quotes from certain places..
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trials because when he stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him." James 1:12
"Oh, nothing can happen more than once,
But all things must happen one day
Over hill and dale, over wood and stream,
My dying voice will blow away... " The Neverending story
"Walk by Faith, Not by sight" 2 Corinthians 5:7
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