After browsing through a couple of blogs (xian's, kai and pam's =), i've finally found some inspiration to pen this entry. Well, i guess in life, we often lose sight of the happiness in our lives because we engross ourselves with what we don't have. Don't have money, don't have boyfriends, don't have popular friends, don't have ipod... and the list goes on.
Really, do we really value these things when they come to us? Or do we end up getting caught up on a never-ending struggle to acquire more and more things? If Freud were alive, he might conclude that we're all stuck at the anal stage, therefore exhibiting anal retentive symptoms.
I must confess that in my short life, i've wanted the experience of having many admirers more than anything else. I envied a number of my more popular friends who've had the chance to be the recipient of guys' attention. To tell you how ridiculous my obsession became, i even started to ask my own da if i were an unattractive person to other people. (not in looks alone, k? personality etc... =P). Now that i think of it, i think i must have been a blockhead to have asked him such questions. I wonder if he felt upset with me, but whether he did or not, he didn't show it.
Before you think me shallow, imagine what it feels like to always be like one of the boys, or worse still, part of the furniture? I had many crushes in my life, most of whom i never ever breathed a word of my feelings, with the exception of two. I guess knowing that the person you like likes another never gave me anything more than a sense of inferiority.
I once read somewhere that people who have low self-esteem should never get involved in a relationship because it would be diastrous. Whether the guy tells you you're pretty or not, you'll still think that you are ugly and never accept that he/ she loves you. So here's to all you people out there, please love yourself before you love others.
Meanwhile, although i know He and da loves me, i'll try to work on loving myself first.
Suppressed Ciaoz.
dreamt of @ 1:30 am
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certain quotes from certain places..
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trials because when he stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him." James 1:12
"Oh, nothing can happen more than once,
But all things must happen one day
Over hill and dale, over wood and stream,
My dying voice will blow away... " The Neverending story
"Walk by Faith, Not by sight" 2 Corinthians 5:7
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