It's been a while since a service spoke deeply to me, like today's service did. The service was entitled, " God, I imagine..." and on the bulletin, there's a very apt snapshot of a composition in the process of being written. The subject of the composition was simply, "God". In the snapshot, what was pictured was a couple of cancelled sentences and finally, a sentence that goes, "God, I imagine...".
During service, Pastor Jeff touched on the idea of how people tended to view God in a particular way and that affects our relationship with Him.
I guess it's true that a lot of us picture God in a certain way. For myself, I've always thought of God as my Daddy who's ever ready to give me a hug when i'm down and stroke my hair to sleep, which is why i often find it difficult to reconcile this image of God together with the "harsh" God that would carry His winnowing fork and seperate the wheat from the chaf.
However, what struck me about the service was the idea that many of us don't really believe that God wants to forgive us. In fact, i'd plead guilty in a second. While i believe that God loves me and wants to forgive me, I'd ask for forgiveness,believe that i am forgiven and an hour later go back to feeling extremely guilty and asking for forgiveness again. This cycle would go on until I am exhausted from prayer or confused about what i was actually praying for.
Like a typical Singaporean, i believed it was alright to ask for more forgiveness, but little did i realise that this was actually a reflection of my lack of faith; a lack of faith in the fact that God is compassionate and a loving Father.
In fact, by harbouring such disbelief, i was putting myself in the open for attacks from the devil because, " The devil condemns, but God convicts.". By allowing such disbelief to exist, I was allowing the devil to condemn me, making me feel guilty and habour negativity. While it is not wrong to feel guilty about things, i came to realise that i often lost sight of the true solution, but instead choose to wallow in worldly sorrow, which leads to death.
Thank God for His timely reminder!
Sleepy Ciaoz!
dreamt of @ 1:02 am
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certain quotes from certain places..
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trials because when he stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him." James 1:12
"Oh, nothing can happen more than once,
But all things must happen one day
Over hill and dale, over wood and stream,
My dying voice will blow away... " The Neverending story
"Walk by Faith, Not by sight" 2 Corinthians 5:7
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