In a word, 'bored'.
I'm B-O-R-E-D... Just collected my driving license earlier on (whew.. almost didn't get to collect it because i lost the registered mail notice.. thanks Auntie, for helping me search for my mail!), polished off 1/2 a pack of cheezels, drove a little, wanting to drive somemore, borrowed 5 books from the library; one on Accounting, on one finance, one on hrm, one on marketing and another on Korean food.
Yep, i'm one kiasu Singaporean. Had an overdose of Mr Brown earlier on. After listening to approximately 15 consecutive podcasts, i actually felt sick. Not just me, my bro and my sis too. I wonder... is too much Mr Brown "Hazmad"?
Anyway, other than that, played loads of games today, but i'm feeling really bored of it. (neopets.. goodness, i've degenerated :{ ) The highlights of my day are my short driving stint to West Mall and out for breakfast and the really short 20 minutes i spent in the arcade with my sister. I love driving! I wonder... will i dislike it like Vincent says i would after i while? I'm seriously doubting it because, its just so fun! Like riding a bike, only with more comfort and a lot more expensive. That's the biggest drawback. Plus, you don't get to lose any weight. Come to think of it, it pollutes the Earth.
Still, i wanna drive!!!! In fact, i feel like driving now! Night driving.. but my dad will kill me if i wake him up to let me drive. Nah... he'll not even bother to wake up. Good thing is, my parking is improving! After trying to park on 3 occasions, i'm finally able to park without much guidance and in a shorter period of time (i mean like with 2 additional corrective movements...really short ;) and my car is right smack in the centre of the lot!!! Wohoo! Only thing is my front wheels weren't really straight... eheh... they were facing two different directions when i parked, but seriously... haha... it isn't such a big deal!
I wanna try parallel soon... and multistory... and expressway! Yahoo!!!! Metal horse... i'm riding my metal horse! I seriously need some exercise.. i'll pop out tomorrow... to the gym... even though it stinks and .... but ... the most important thing... it's free!!!
Hmm... teh bing tastes nice... not bad...tried it for breakfast today.. hey... maybe the teh bing caused me to have an upset stomach! =( Deviating for a moment, i hope that i won't finish my papers so soon next time round... i don't wanna to be waiting for people to finish so that i can go out...
House of the dead is not as nice as House of the dead IV!!!!! (This is just a random exclaimation)
Haiz... haiz.... my dear blog... if only you could speak....
Ciaoz...better go bathe before i grow roots and get stuck to the chair.
dreamt of @ 12:34 am
In a word, 'bored'.
I'm B-O-R-E-D... Just collected my driving license earlier on (whew.. almost didn't get to collect it because i lost the registered mail notice.. thanks Auntie, for helping me search for my mail!), polished off 1/2 a pack of cheezels, drove a little, wanting to drive somemore, bored 5 books from the library; one on Accounting, on one finance, one on hrm, one on marketing and another on Korean food.
Yep, i'm one kiasu Singaporean. Had an overdose of Mr Brown earlier on. After listening to approximately 15 consecutive podcasts, i actually felt sick. Not just me, my bro and my sis too. I wonder... is too much Mr Brown "Hazmad"?
Anyway, other than that, played loads of games today, but i'm feeling really bored of it. (neopets.. goodness, i've degenerated :{ ) The highlights of my day are my short driving stint to West Mall and out for breakfast and the really short 20 minutes i spent in the arcade with my sister. I love driving! I wonder... will i dislike it like Vincent says i would after i while? I'm seriously doubting it because, its just so fun! Like riding a bike, only with more comfort and a lot more expensive. That's the biggest drawback. Plus, you don't get to lose any weight. Come to think of it, it pollutes the Earth.
Still, i wanna drive!!!! In fact, i feel like driving now! Night driving.. but my dad will kill me if i wake him up to let me drive. Nah... he'll not even bother to wake up. Good thing is, my parking is improving! After trying to park on 3 occasions, i'm finally able to park without much guidance and in a shorter period of time (i mean like with 2 additional corrective movements...really short ;) and my car is right smack in the centre of the lot!!! Wohoo! Only thing is my front wheels weren't really straight... eheh... they were facing two different directions when i parked, but seriously... haha... it isn't such a big deal!
I wanna try parallel soon... and multistory... and expressway! Yahoo!!!! Metal horse... i'm riding my metal horse! I seriously need some exercise.. i'll pop out tomorrow... to the gym... even though it stinks and .... but ... the most important thing... it's free!!!
Hmm... teh bing tastes nice... not bad...tried it for breakfast today.. hey... maybe the teh bing caused me to have an upset stomach! =( Deviating for a moment, i hope that i won't finish my papers so soon next time round... i don't wanna to be waiting for people to finish so that i can go out...
House of the dead is not as nice as House of the dead IV!!!!! (This is just a random exclaimation)
Haiz... haiz.... my dear blog... if only you could speak....
Ciaoz...better go bathe before i grow roots and get stuck to the chair.
dreamt of @ 12:18 am
Just thought i'd blog about how i'm feeling now. A little light stuff.
In a word: fluffy.
Nothing much except that i wish i am on the top of the empire state building, clad in a white cashmere pullover, looking out into the expanse of darkness. Closing my eyes to feel the soft touch of a gentle breeze or the passionate embrace of an impeding gale, to surrender to the delicious chill of the night.
To dangle my legs over the ledge with nary a care, to capture the magic of the night; knowing its secrets, savorying the quietness that is when the half world is at rest.
Would angels be doing their rounds? Checking in on every house to make sure that all is safe, snug, tucked into bed? Would God be smiling that secret smile of a parent seeing His tired children dozing off into dream land as He covers the world with a blanket of snow? A mixture of pleasure and odd sense of protectiveness.... (I'm guessing, of course) Is He awaiting the coming of morning when His children would open their sleepy eyes to the surprise that He has left in the night? A pristine expanse of fluffy white snow.
Too much dreaming going on... i'm here but i'm really away... seekin', searching.. not for the truth... i know that ... but for that one magical moment.
Ciaoz.
dreamt of @ 12:28 am
We are often told that God is the greatest giver of all, the one who wants to bless us all the time. We are also told that God wants the best for us. Today, i found out that i did not really understand those promises as much as i thought i did.
Today, on the 17th of November 2006, I took 2 of my 3 exam papers for the semester, the first being AB311, otherwise known as Strategic Management or SM and the second being Hp304 Learning and Behaviour analysis. Having done poor preparation for both papers, the first mostly somewhat covered with the exception case study and the second, almost close to nothing, i underwent one of the worst exam experiences that i ever did.
Although being prompted a number of times to study a particular set of supplementary notes for AB311, i was too distracted to actually carry it out. Distracted by what? Distracted by games, television cartoons, dust mites flying around, you name it, i've got it. Lo and Behold, the information from the set of notes came out for the exams and it was worth a good 15 marks. It was also the very first question, which really demoralised me for the rest of the paper. Although i managed to finish the paper, i can clearly say that not even half of what i had intended to write is on that paper.
Next, the infamous HP304 exams which could possibly earn the title of being the very first module that i failed. I'm serious, so wipe that disbelieving look and store those words of convenience comfort away. What else would you expect from someone who did not even study the book once through. This time round, i could only effectively answer 20 out of 100 of the marks. Although the paper only constitutes 50% of my module grades, let me assure you that the other 50% isn't exactly in the bag.
To be brutally honest, I begged in the examination hall. I begged for an inspiration from God, for forgiveness, for grace, in short, i begged for good grades. I plead and yet deep inside me i felt an odd sense of resignation. Not the resignation that is filled with resentment, rather the resignation that is filled with an understanding of the reason for this gift. This gift of silence.
Most people will wonder why i consider this "lack of aid" from God a gift and let me say that i have a reason for it. The reason is simply that I was blind.
I was blinded to the fact that it isn't the things happening around me that distracted me from doing my work. It is my pride. A pride that is built on my past successes, a pride that led me to think that i could study a 400 page book in 2 hours ( now that i think of it, could be stupidity as well =p). What no rational person would think of doing, i did so twice in my short life of 21 years. The first of which was in secondary school when i studied for my O level's biology paper just 3 hours before the exams and the second is this.
I used to be proud of it. Now i'm not. I'm not proud of this mediocre performance which i try to pass off as intelligence. Nope... no longer will i believe that these are acts of intelligence but rather of extreme stupidity and pride. (seems like these 2 always come together...) That's why i thank God for this gift. This gift of having a chance to realize just how puffed up i was and really about nothing (much ado about nothing. =)
In the bible, it is said tha t" he has scattered those who are proud in their innermost thoughts and that "He who ignores discipline despises himself," hence, its really a fantastic gift of falling hard so as to know what really is in my heart. I'm thankful to be disciplined as well for "because the Lord disciplines those he loves and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son."
When the day of the results come, i will still pray for mercy and the Lord's grace but i think my prayer list is going to get longer because i'm definitely including the prayer against pride and for self-discipline and obedience.
Ciaoz!
dreamt of @ 1:36 am
Here's something interesting that i came across while checking my mail...
AFRAID TO RISK?
An old poem by Richard Armour makes a good point: The bride, white of hair, is stooped over her cane Her faltering footsteps need guiding. While down the church aisle, with wan toothless smile, The groom in a wheelchair comes riding. And who is this elderly couple you ask? You'll find, when you've closely explored it, That here is that rare, most conservative pair, Who waited 'til they could afford it.Are you ever afraid to take a risk? Afraid to commit because of anuncertain future? Afraid of failing? Not that anyone would wait anentire life before taking a chance on marriage, but do you tend towait until all possible risks are minimized before setting out in anew direction?Though caution and common sense are certainly important, sometimes arisk is called for. As the late William Arthur Ward wisely said: To laugh is to risk appearing a fool. To weep is to risk appearing sentimental. To reach out for another is to risk involvement. To expose feelings is to risk revealing your true self. To place you ideas, your dreams, before a crowd is to risk rejection. To love is to risk not being loved in return. To live is to risk dying. To hope is to risk disappointment. To try is to risk failure. But risks must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. Those who risk nothing, do nothing, have nothing, and become nothing. They may avoid present suffering and sorrow, but they will not learn, feel, change, grow, love, or live. Chained by their fear, they are slaves who have forfeited their freedom. Only a person who risks is free. The pessimist complains about the wind; The optimist expects it to change; And the realist adjusts the sails.Is fear preventing you from taking a necessary risk today?
dreamt of @ 4:10 am
jo lum
chilli
liars
To be able to concentrate on my studies!
16.09.1985
virgo
` likes.
novels
cats & nachos
anne of green gables
jughead
purple!
dreaming..
believing in the goodness of the world
` don't-likes.
being disappointed
mud on my shoes (yuck)
gravyyyyyyyyy on my riceeeee =P
murtabak! =s
blockheads
To go for my canada trip with Pammie-gal!
To have my 21st birthday celebration in Esmiridas!
To have more faith!
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certain quotes from certain places.. "Blessed is the man who perseveres under trials because when he stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him." James 1:12 "Oh, nothing can happen more than once, But all things must happen one day Over hill and dale, over wood and stream, My dying voice will blow away... " The Neverending story "Walk by Faith, Not by sight" 2 Corinthians 5:7 |