The next time i get emotional,depressed and plagued with negative thoughts, i am definitely going to do what i just did today: reading blogs of people who are believers. I was actually feeling quite down these few days because of the lack of news from the companies' that i applied for (dfs, GIC.. if you see this, please reply!!!). To make things worse, i found it harder and harder to flee from the thoughts about how much my friends were getting paid, how good a company they were in and what a bright future they must have. It's kind of like seeing a fruit dangled before your face and you can't get it because your hands are tied behind your back.
Because of that, my walk with God has been a rollercoaster ride the past week: with days where i have full confidence in the Lord and days where i felt like i'd been abandoned into the darkest of abysses. I struggled with all the fundamental issues of whether God was listening to me, whether He cared and on really bad days, whether He really existed. Thankfully, whenever these dark thoughts surface, verses from the bible would also come to mind to remind me that those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion, which cannot be shaken but endures forever.
It was however, the posts from Pastor Jeff and my dear sister, Sam's blog that really reminded me again how great God has been to me and how much He wishes to bless me and the rest of His family. From the messages about patience and trust (the post on Rick Warren's How God builds you while you are building your ministry) to simple descriptions of days led with God in the centre, i was again renewed in my faith and trust in my Lord. Really thankful that God spoke to me through the words and lives of others to remind me of His greatness and love!
Ciaoz and a happy CNY!
dreamt of @ 3:56 pm
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Sunday, February 04, 2007
When can i say with gusto and from the bottom of my heart, "C'est la vie?"
Does everyone go through the stage of being lost and wanting to stay lost?
Where is my next path?
Why is it so hard to know what was planned for me?
Maybe i'm a bit "deaf" and i can't hear the words being shouted to me.
So many questions... where are my answers?
Can i just spend my life travelling around and learning about the world? Is there a job that pays me to visit museums, historical sites, scenic locations and well, marvel at them?
Path A, B,C....Z.... Which one is it?
The older i get, the more i don't want to grow up. Bleh.. =_=
Je ne comprend pas du tout! C'est une difficile vie!
Au Revoir!
dreamt of @ 11:30 pm
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` wordsWorth.
certain quotes from certain places..
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trials because when he stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him." James 1:12
"Oh, nothing can happen more than once,
But all things must happen one day
Over hill and dale, over wood and stream,
My dying voice will blow away... " The Neverending story
"Walk by Faith, Not by sight" 2 Corinthians 5:7
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