Life is at a new stage for me. Coping with new responsibilities like bills, job searches, life choices etc. Some people face it as per a new and exciting challenge. Other dread it. Me? Sometimes I feel like it's exciting and full of promises. Other times, it feels like I suddenly awoke from a deep sleep to find that i'm on a raft in the middle of an immense stretch of ocean with no apparent end and no compass. I might have a fishing rod and nets but it's not enough for me to just sit in the middle of the ocean, not knowing what's on the other end.
Should I sit there and lead the rest of my life? Should I sail left, or right? Nautically speaking, there are at least 8 specific directions; North, North East, East, South East, South, South West, West North West. For myself.. it seems like there is an enormous number of directions and at the same time, none.
The key is contentment. Or is the key, aspirations?
How can I live with just contentment? But reality bites.
Many advises.Many perspectives. Is it always a "I'm sorry" or "Give up your dreams"? Why can't it be that my dreams don't lead me down the path of letting someone down?
dreamt of @ 12:34 pm
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Sunday, July 08, 2007
It's been ages since I last blogged. Apparently, it's the same for most of my friends, with the exception of Samantha. Anyway, i've officially joined in the lifeless class of working adults, my great craving is having more hours to sleep each day. Working life isn't very fun. No.. corrections, it isn't fun when you consider how much you need to spend to work. That plus what you sacrifice. Look at the equation below:
Cost of work = start up costs ( clothes, make-up etc) + periodical maintenance costs (refilling those stuff mentioned before) + transport (adult's fare) + food + income taxes + duty allowances to family + telephone bills + other miscellaneous stuff ( e.g. paying for people's meals or treats...) + opportunity cost of sleeping + opportunity cost of self actualization ( upgrading yourself etc... in things you enjoy) + emotional stress + work stress
Benefits of work = Salary
So, when you look at the equation...
Conclusion = Salary < Cost of work.
To the people who have started work with me or before me... hope you guys are enjoying your jobs. I wish I knew what I really want. I'm amazed at people who can just stay on in a job for years even though they don't like the job. Salute! (right hand!)Seriously amazed by you all. I wonder how my dad felt working for 11 years in a place that he didn't like and in a job that he didn't fancy. Maybe I'm too pampered and I know that I probably irritated some of my friends because i've been complaining and whining about my job searches and job related decisions. It's hard to let go and as much as I wish to, I can't stop thinking about it. It's like a knife that's stuck in my heart, not too deep that I die instantly but deep enough for me to keep bleeding. Maybe you don't understand that's why your remarks weren't very appropriate. Admittedly I was hurt. Very hurt actually.. but no.. it's not going to bother me. I need to go back...home.. home on the range.
I don't want a life like yours. Nor do I want to be you. I'll stick to not sharing then. It's easier that way. Afterall, not everyone needs to know what I do with my life and I don't think you need to either.
dreamt of @ 12:49 am
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certain quotes from certain places..
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trials because when he stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him." James 1:12
"Oh, nothing can happen more than once,
But all things must happen one day
Over hill and dale, over wood and stream,
My dying voice will blow away... " The Neverending story
"Walk by Faith, Not by sight" 2 Corinthians 5:7
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