Met up with an old friend today. An old friend whom I grew up with and whom I watched grow up. I'm not sure I like what happened to __ though. Seems like the happy person is slowly disappearing into a the quicksand of indifference.
A few learning points from this incident.
1) When you think you are doing fine as a friend, consider the number of times you (a) thought of your friend, (b) tried to find out about their lives, (c)is updated about the troubles they are going through.
2) Don't try to justify your actions/ lack of actions after trust is lost.
3) Never give up on the person unless you really think that you're ready and able to completely wipe the memories of the person from your life.
Honestly, I sometimes feel that I only have limited capacity in my heart. Find it so difficult to remember to care about people. I think that's self-centredness. All who agree with me, breathe.
I know it's supposed to be the other way round (i.e. Care about people therefore you will remember to ask about them.) but I'm finding it really really hard. It brings me back to the same question that I've asked myself loads of times: Why are you so lousy at keeping friends?
Naivity makes me believe that time stops for me. Reality wakes me up to the truth that everyone's gone.
dreamt of @ 9:28 pm
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certain quotes from certain places..
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trials because when he stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him." James 1:12
"Oh, nothing can happen more than once,
But all things must happen one day
Over hill and dale, over wood and stream,
My dying voice will blow away... " The Neverending story
"Walk by Faith, Not by sight" 2 Corinthians 5:7
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